Tuesday, January 31, 2006
WHOO! MY BIRTHDAY 2 MORE DAYS!! x) went out with cindy just now. went to PS only cause thats all the time we had for. bought PRESENT for VERA!! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR BABE!!!! and there's HOUSE OF DEAD 4 AT PLAZA SINGAPURA ARCADE!!! i die also will go with ethel there! x) then ermm..took pics. few only cause my bloody camera no batt and of course also my fault never charge. hehe. then we ate at this VERY VERY NICE antiqe shop! SO NICE. we thought it just sell stuff but you can eat there! so nice. we had cakes, drinks and soup. NICE NICE NICE. then bloody shit lady dont let us take photos of her antiqe. fuck. x( its DAMN NICE. MUST GO! its call erm..tea something de. then erm shopped for vera's bday present. we were like rushing. cause i was late to go home. then erm..before that. we went to simei. thought could charge camera there but only handphones =( then cindy ate at bk cause food court CLOSE. then saw him there. and saw sujartha. she's DAMN NICE. so sweet of her lol. x) love her sia. hahahas. then after eating. went PS. then go to spotlight. cindy bought her LACE and STICKERS. then right. we saw the most WEIRD THING! imagine. a basin. filled with FISHES inside. as in the part which is suppose to be cement of whatsoever. ARE FILLED WITH FISHES! imagine staring at fishes everyday and the fishes staring at you. HAHAHAS. you'll just think the fishes would come out. you have to see it really understand lah. DAMN FUNNY!! sad never take pic of it sia! nvm. go there again then i take pic X) HAHAHAS. erm chi new year had been SIAN. but thnks to certain ppl who pei-ed me through sms-es. LOVE THEM X) hahahas. k now i've to freaking print out map. IRRITATING PRINTER.
withLOVES.
-hillary
my love, my fate, you will fade away.
I love, I hate, I'll always be afraid..
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Masquerade Love.
7:23 PM
Sunday, January 29, 2006
heyhey people! x) HAPPY NEW YEAR. gong xi fa cai eh. x) yesterday was SIAN lah! went out. walked around with parents. many shops CLOSED! then come home 4+ then 6+ go out again. wanted to east coast for dinner but in the end went raffles hotel there. many shops CLOSED as well. but at least had a nice dinner. x) then reached home like 9+? then have been rotting online. till like 1? but then still ok. caught up with some ppl. x) its a bloody boring day.. then later on. going visit dad's friends. BORING LAH. dont know anyone there cept some which i see every year. which is still sian cause they practically say the same stuff every year. then tonight. gonna have 'reunion' dinner with my dad's friends. hope not sian bah. hahahas. i dont want to rot there. lalala. time just stops when you're not around!!
-hillary.
take cares.
HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PPL!
keep that smile on your face.
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Masquerade Love.
9:57 AM
Saturday, January 28, 2006
WHOO! yesterday watched i not stupid 2. SOSOSO nice. we [cindy, elisha, chelle and me] sang happy birthday to jet in the cinema! so fun. then down there so many hai sians lol. then we go make noise. ming yang marcus they all down there also make noise. wahas. the movie was like laughs laughs and then cry. its damn touching lah. must watch must watch. its really. omg. you just have to watch it to feel it. before movie started. met ethel they all. and jet gave me an early present x) and somemore we celebrating his bday. i havent give him present yet. paisae sia. nvm. i give you when sch reopen. i love the bag! thnks ethel for picking it out. wahahas. then hmm. yesterday also met him and his friends. then by the time i reached up around 6+ 7? some where there. and my DAD was home. wtf. then first thing dinner already say bout my nails. IS IT WRONG to keep long nails?! come on lah. a girl. keeping long nails. perfectly normal. bloody fuck. i have to cut it off. then next was my ROOM. MY ROOM FOR GOD SAKE. he also want to care. he went into my room as if is his. then start looking at my stuff. fuck sia. then say my room messy. then fine lah. i never say im tidy also. then he down there kpkb at me. then just now. i was still SLEEPING. he wake me up and ask me to clean my room. please lah. wont die sia if my room messy. then i like kena scolded .. now he finally OUTSIDE. i want to die lah. i hate him. i hate my dad. then hais. just hate him.. then later going out with my parents. SIAN.anyway. HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR to all. and HAPPY BRITHDAY to JETHRO! x)
withLOVE.
-hillary
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Masquerade Love.
10:33 AM
Wednesday, January 18, 2006
sian sian sian. stupid. now sch is like SIAN. though still love my friends. but its like SIAN. no voice. another sad thing. i sound so horrible sia. anyway. i did it. i left him far away. never think of him le x) now we're friends. today whole day at home slp slp and SLEEP. and sms x) so miss someone. HAHAHAS. i miss many ppl. x) sure got lots of things to do when go back sch. hais.. sad. thats just life. like nothing to blog about. ooh. and i got into dance. so did ethel, samantha and michelle x) so nice lol they dance. we freaked out so much. but felt so happy. almost died in sch yesterday. was like so cham la. fever till whole face red. then stupid still got history test. HENG sia. yesterday got 3 new students. then teacher say postpone ting xie to friday. they 3 like so guai la. dont make noise. then quiet quiet do hw. but soon. they will fit in perfectly. i think.. hahahas. k. i also dont know what to continue with. i want to give a BIG HUG and a BIG THANK YOU. to those ppl who pei me x) and a big GET WELL SOON to cindy. x)
many loves.
-HILLARY
/*as time past. you are too the past.-
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Masquerade Love.
6:31 PM
Monday, January 09, 2006
its been long since i thought of you. x) what to do... now like so sian. hehe. everything is so so so different now. like something missing like that but im taking better now. yeah.. learning to stand on my own again. should really stop falling for things which i know mayb end anytime. though not all feelings are gone.. im working hard to forget you and i know i can with the help of my great friends. though you left a deeper scar in my heart. i will heal soon. all it take is time. hais. school abit tough. rush hw last night. so tired. slept at 12+ like that lol.
taking every step. to leave my memories with you.
taking every step to forget you...
-HILLARY
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Masquerade Love.
10:46 AM
Saturday, January 07, 2006
everything is over between us. the first day of sch. the first day after oh so long i see him. and everything turns wrong. well guess let by gones be by gones. whatever he promise. true or not? its not for me to believe.. its just sad. anyway. he changed. so so much. attitude character. i dont know him anymore. the one i loved who loved me. was gone. not there anymore.. what can i do? leave him and continue life. knowing that he is just not worth another tear. thanks to my friends out there. they are the best. thnks for hanging on with me. thnks for being there for me. without you all..i would have fallen to pieces. whatever he is thinking now. hopes he know what he is doing and hope he will wake up from this one day..3 months 4 days. gone just like that. guess its a pity.
ANYWAY.. let the sadness drown. i still want to live. though still not totally over him. working on it x) met a new guy call clarence. nice guy. kor's friend. hahas. so many hw. hais. projects..hais. good thing tues hari raya. at least can slack abit.
every time i see him. memories flashes past. anger. hurt. sadness everywhere. i dont want to feel this. it just feels too numb to forget you. im not perfect just all mixed up. all messed up. i was losing myself to somebody else but now i see. i dont wanna pretend so this is the end of you and me. cause the girl that you want. she is tearing us apart. cause she is everything. everything im NOT! so this IS the END of YOU and ME.
things in sch are the same. spotted a few chio bus.. no guy shuai in sec 1. sad case.. good news. every wed go sch late. x) sch the schedule not so cham. feel abit better. but this is just the 1st week.. after sch have suddenly turn ultra sian. dont know why. everything just seem so NOT interesting.. still rushing through projects and hw.. YUCKS. though i have no choice..
made some new friends. nice ppl. x) erm then michelle is very chio in her new hairstyle! its the bare truth. and erm everything else is ok.. i guess.
this bout it i think..
fuck definites my life.
-HILLARY
you may not walk down this road with me anymore but i could stand on my own now. i dont need you no more.
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Masquerade Love.
5:34 PM
