The last something that meant anything.

Wednesday, February 28, 2007

WHOO. common tests are offically OVERRRRRR. got back physics today. WHOOO PASSED (: HOHOHO. thanks to my lovely people who taught me. YOU'RE LOVE!! (: been mugging pass few days. maths was actually easy lol. BUT as easy as it is. I COULDN'T BLOODY HELL FINISH THE DAMN FUCKING PAPER. but anyway since its over then rahhhhh. now am super bored sia. haha. went to terror house just now. played 21. HOHOHO. funny eh. then sha came to meet us. slacked. put mentos in coke. funny sia. now im talking to baboon and terror. (:

i'm finally picking up the pieces.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
10:17 PM

Sunday, February 25, 2007

holla humans (: today is boringggggggggggg. everyone's mugging. mug mug mug. rahhh.

24.02.2007
went bai nian with shasha, chin seng, clive, yan how, leon, jet and hans joined us too. leon's dad won an 8 hour cab ride so it was pretty nice. the driver was so cute eh. short short one. there's a mini tv built in. watched a little bit of chicken little and mr bean went to ppl's houses. nice places (: haha. had to leave early to meet parents at tm. haha. the day was spent having fun. hohoho.

now need to mug for tmr's combine science paper. RAHHH. stress.

miracles happen once in awhile.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
3:43 PM

Friday, February 23, 2007

hello world. pass few days weren't the most spectacular days i guess. common test are here once again. pathetic, useless and STRESSFUL.

Wednesday.
after 4 days of 'holiday' sch starts again. dreaded. lion dance and dragon dance performance. it was ok luh. then lessons were BORING -.- then went meet bronza with su and hong yen then study.

thursday.
lessons went on. temperature taking thingy is a waste of time even though is to ensure safety of students. anyway nothing interesting i guess. after school went to simei slack and study. jerryl, bronza su and me. (: then val and alvin ong came too. then saw xiao di and people. then i rushed home for tuition. SUPER TIRED. STRESSED UP.

today.
POA POA POA POA POAAAAAAAAAAA STRESSED UP. continuous mugging doesn't seem like much of a help since i seem to have flunk the paper. all the things i tried to remember all flew away. FAR FAR AWAY -.- then went to alvin ong's house. then went to stadium for sport heats 2. cheered for purple house (: till the whole thing ended went to simei find bronza and grayson and went to 'study' again. thats bout it. tmr gonna go bai nian with my lovely class and ex class mates (:

my dear girl. i'll always be here for you. no worries (: HOHOHO. you're LOVE!

am gonna make this a long long post for i don't know what fuck.
(whatever is written below is SUPER RANDOM)

for guys:

When a girl bumps into your arm
while walking she wants
you to hold her hand

When she wants a hug
she will just stand there

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it when
you run into each other 3 years later

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running through
her mind.

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply.

When a girl looks at you with eyes
full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around.

When a girl answers, "I'm fine, "
after a few seconds,
she is not at all fine.

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are so
wonderful.

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever.

When a girl says that she can't live
without you,she has made up her
mind that you are her future.

When a girl says, "I miss you, "
no one in this world can miss you more
than that

When a girl is mean to you after a
breakup she wants you back,
but she'sscared she'll get hurt and knows
you're gone forever

for girls:

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you

When a guy is quiet,
he's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
he realizes he's wrong

When a guy says, "I'm fine, " after a
few minutes, he means it

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and
wonders if you do

When you're laying your head on a guy's
chest,he has the world

When a guy calls you everyday,
he is in love

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he means it

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till your done

When a guy says, "I miss you, "
he misses you more than you could have
ever missed him or anything else.

sometimes this random things you read on friendster will just hit you hard on your head. but kinda think of it. its not all that true. many guys may fit to the things said above but many don't too. sometimes the 3 words make big impact on people's life. some just grow fond of the person if not some is just infactuation. think twice before you decide to toy with someone's feeling. karma will come your way. HOHOHO. be truthful to your love ones. be truthful to yourself.

it will always be.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
8:18 PM

Tuesday, February 20, 2007

GUESS WHO?

Masquerade Love.
10:27 PM

GONG XI FA CAI ((: hahas. today went to ppl house bai nian (: first went to marcus then have steamboat, played ps2. sha, cindy, sean, mich and kean were there too. we had fun. hohoho. then after that continue go bai nian. not going to elaborate. going to upload pics soon ((: SCHOOL IS STARTING TMR. RAHHHH. SCREW SCHOOLS. common test coming. screw it screw it screw it!

p.s: I HAVE A FUCKED UP FATHER. (super random but i just have to let it out)

love.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
7:56 PM

Monday, February 19, 2007

I'm sorry
that i bought you roses
to tell you that i like you

I'm sorry
That I was raised with respect
not to sleep with you
when you were drunk

I'm sorry
That my body's not ripped enough
to "satisfy" your wants

I'm sorry
that I open your car door,and pull out your chair like I was
raised

I'm sorry
That I'm not cute enough
to be "your guy"

I'm sorry
That I am actually nice;
not an asshole

I'm sorry
I don't have a huge bank account
to buy you expensive things

I'm sorry
I like to spend quality nights at home
cuddling with you, instead of at a club

I'm sorry
I would rather make love to you then
just f**k you
like some random guy.

I'm sorry
That I am always the one you need to
talk to, but never good enough to date

I'm sorry
That I always held your hair back when
you threw up,and didn't get mad at you
for puking in my car,
but when we went out, you went home with
another guy

I'm sorry
That I am there to pick you up at 4am
when your new man hit you and dropped
you off in the middle of nowhere,
but you was not good enough to listen to me
when I needed a friend

I'm sorry
If I started being there, and being
used as a door mat, only to be thrown
to the side when the new asshole comes around

I'm sorry
If I don't answer my phone anymore when you call,
to listen to you cry for hours,
instead of getting a couple hours
of sleep before work

I'm sorry
that you can't realize..
I've been the one all along.

I'm sorry
If you read this and know somebody like this
but don't care

But most of all

I'm sorry
For not being sorry anymore

I'm sorry
That you can't accept me for who I am

I'm sorry
I can't ever do anything right, and
nothing that I do is good
enough to make it in your world.

I'm sorry
I caught your bf with another girl and
told you about it, I thought that was
what friends were for...

I'm sorry
That I told you I loved you and
actually meant it.

I'm sorry
That I talked to you for nine hours on Thanksgiving when your bf was
threatening you instead of spending
time with my family.

I'm Sorry
That i cared

I'm sorry
that I listen to you at night to talk about
how you wish you could have done something different.

Ladies always bitch and bitch to their
friends that there is never any good guys out there,
and they always end up with assholes who mistreat them.
Well ladies next time when you're bitching, maybe
look up to see who you're bitching to,maybe that special
someone is right there hanging on your every word as usual,
screaming in his head "Why won't you give me a chance?"
Because the person you are usually
searching for is right by you.

this is a bulletin extracted from friendster. appearantly it sounds quite true. though abit insulting but you have to admit this happens to many.

MY ITCHING FINGER IS KILLING MEEEEEEE. RAHHH
yeah tmr going bai nian with my lovely people ((:

today went to an indian family to bai nian. their daughters were super cute. AND INTERNATIONAL SCH HAVE FUCKING LOTS OF HOLIDAYYYYS.

currently talking to MR EVIL. hohoho. and i think he wants me to blog bout him? LOL ALVIN ONG is a caring yet EVIL kor (:

thats all for now.

loves.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
11:42 PM

Sunday, February 18, 2007

photos which should have been posted ages ago. my birthday and that saturday. i love humchi ppt (:

the day i thought i'd never get through, i got over you
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
6:15 PM

Now that it's all said and done
I can't believe you were the one
To build me up and tear me down
Like an old abandoned house
What you said when you left
Just left me cold and out of breath
I fell too far, was in way too deep
Guess I let you get the best of meeee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally gettin' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

You took a hammer to these walls
Dragged the memories down the hall
Packed your bags and walked away
There was nothing I could say,
And when you slammed the front door shut
A lot of other's opened up
So did my eyes so I could see
That you never were the best for meee

(Chorus)
Well I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo!
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you
More than you, more than you know
I'm slowly getting closure
I guess it's really over
I'm finally getting' better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
'Cause the day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you!!!
(End Chorus)

I never saw it coming
I should have started running
A long, long time agooo
And I never thought I'd doubt you
I'm better off without you

And I never saw it coming
I should have started running
I'm finally getting better
Now I'm picking up the pieces
From spending all of these years
Putting my heart back together
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!
And I got over you!!!

The day I thought I'd never get through
I got over you…

-Over you, Chris Daughtry
nice song ((:

Masquerade Love.
5:13 PM

Saturday, February 17, 2007

RAHHH. i screw the skin HAHA. im boredddd. temporary skin till i find something -.-

let the rain wash away my tears
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
7:18 PM

DADDY's BACK IN SINGAPORE -.- there goes staying out late at night with humchi ppt. rahhhh. quick go quick go. anyway, daddy came back last night. about 1+ am. brought back 2 big boxes of strawberries from korea (: THATS LOVEEEE. wahaha. nothing much other then that i suppose.

friday.
went home straight after sch. changed and meet vin T and O, colin, su, val, elisha at tamp. went to town meet grayson. then to fareast. shopped for alvin ong's belt. the shop like not cram not cram. andrea joined us then went walking round. saw many ppl. val had to rush home so she went off first. then andrea left too. leaving the rest of us there. we took a bus to newton mrt as orchard was pouring heavily. went to bedok interchange. walked around for elisha's shoes then went to eat. saw a few familiar faces. then sent alvin ong off. then we went to slack. did the dumb questions which made elisha and colin damn pek chek. HAHA. everyone cabbed home around 10+ (:

CHINATOWN IS BLOODY CROWDED WITH IRRITATING PPL. lol. that was random.

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR PEOPLE. (:

with love.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
6:20 PM

Wednesday, February 14, 2007

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SEAN!
Couples are everywhereeee i tell you. rahhhhh. that bites. HARD.sch was pretty ok today. everyone was giving or receiving gifts. PSLs were running round playing cupid. a job well done yah. my dear girls were flooded with gifts from their someone (: sweet. haha. thanks for the gifts from the dear ppl ((: went to beach after sch with evil and king kong jie. slacked till val and her stead came. so sweeet ((: almost died from thirst while waiting for her. then cabbed back. now im home. boreded. i'm going to continue copying sra (:
if i could then i would..
-hillary
GOODNIGHTTTT

Masquerade Love.
11:23 PM

Tuesday, February 13, 2007

hello my lovely humans! whooo. have been going home super late recently -.- rahh. resulting in today being home. HAHA.

friday.
went slacking with sujatha after dance. went to elisha's house downstairs. sent her off for tuition then me and su talked a whole lot. RETARDATION. haha. went back to simei. met ppl and talked even more. it was close to 12? when i reached home. LOL.

sat.
went to ECP. baboon jie taught me how to blade ((: i was SLOW.. =x haha. fell down a couple of times. but its still FUN (: blading is love. haha. went back to simei for bbq. celebrated jerrel's birthday in advance (: then slacked around his swimming pool there and talked a whole lot of crap. went home bout 2+++ -.-

sun.
went out with mummy cause it was her birthday AND I NEVER wish her happy birthday either =x oops. then went down to simei meet su and ah yao. waited for vin then went to popular looking for assesments. hahas. went to pasir ris beach. poked a DEAD catfish back into the sea. super retarded luh. then went to vin's house. saw his CUTE gerbils (: slacked awhile. went to eat bar chor mee (((: then slacked round his house playground there. and blah blah blah. then bout 10+ left.

mon.
school was boring luh. mdm zaibon wasn't there so slacked. then there was SUPPOSE to be no water in sch but i guess the ppl weren't that heartless and we still have water supply. after sch rushed home. changed and went to lavender with mummy. made my ic. then go bugis shopping ((: got Vday presents for my darlings (: ate dinner. and sneaked away to get mummy her belated present (: heard that andy lau was at bugis -.- causing ppl to jam the way -.- after dinner shopped for more presents. then cab-ed home.

NOW. im at home. my dear ppl are at sch. lol. boredom. i'm going to catch up on my hw (:

LOVES.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:43 AM

Friday, February 09, 2007

helloooo wahahas. ok im bored bored bored. just reached home awhile ago. super tired now. school life is as busy as ever. tmr we're going out to ECP (: blading blading!!!! ((: tests tests tests. rahhhhhh. had dance. was alright. talking to vin and valerie. had a kind of cute teacher for maths. wahaha. IM ACTUALLY PAYING ATTENTION DURING MATHS!! haha. i'm going to STUDYYYYYYYYYYYYY. hohoho. i'm super lazy to type le. GOODNIGHT my lovely PEOPLE.

btw,
HAPPY BELATED 15th BIRTHDAY KAIJIE.
HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY NICHOLAS

i thought it throught and finally understand.

with loves,
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
11:31 PM

Tuesday, February 06, 2007

today's been a super bad day i guess. seeing you smile still make my heart melt. knowing more doesn't seem to make anything simpler and it definately doesn't make it any easier to move on. anyway, today. dance. rahhh. the feeling sucked. still feeling dizzy now.. bio test is tmr i can't read anything.. everything seems to be moving even as i type.

you know i love you,
i'll always do.
i can't pretend that you're nothing special.
i feel like i'll do anything to get you back by my side.
slits and cuts are my sweet escape.
i bleed to know i'm alive.
my world is spinning,
it seems like its coming to an end..
till then,
goodbye my love,
i'll always love you.

your presence is no longer felt.
where'd you go..
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:59 PM

Monday, February 05, 2007

hey people. dancers went to UCC today. reached sch close to 9. walked about pasir ris beach and reached home round 10++. had matrices test today confirm fail. nothing much. i reminisce. im emo. whats fucking wrong with the world.

what did i really do wrong..
i can see your feelings fade..
leaving me with the thought of you having someone else in mind..
i really want to know.

all i see is blood shot eyes.
tears crashing around me.
day after day, i see myself thinking about you.
helplessly, endlessly..
waiting for my wake up call.
once again i'd fallen too deep,
believing in forevers which was never true.
my heart was shattered into millions pieces..
i really wish you were back by my side..
and if you don't..
i wish you'd find someone who will treat you much better than i ever did.
i really want you to be happy.
you're the one i loved and love.

your face, your smile, your eyes
still melts my heart.
your voice is the sweetest sound to my ear.
i really want you back..

super emo.
cuts and slashes.
bleed me dry...
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
11:38 PM

Saturday, February 03, 2007

hello humans. thinking back bout last night. wondered what went wrong. guess feelings just come and go. i still miss you. rahhh. anyway went out with humji ppt ((: waha. had dance and my dear ppl waited 1 hour for me to change and bathe. haha. ate. then went to bugis play pool (: su, grayson taught me how to play AND AND I WON ALVIN! HAHA. went to library there play. SUPER SPASTIC. then me and sujatha damn retarded but it was fun. went to vin's house. slack awhile then go home. it was a super retarded day. hahas. thanks lovelies! humji ppt is LOVE!

though you're gone..
i still think of you.
reminiscing about our past
what we use to be.
i miss those times.
those were great moments spent.
everytime i look into your eyes.
i smile.
all those times where you made me laugh.
those times when i was super retarded.
i guess i could never smile like that no more.
those time we spent together slacking..
i miss you so..

ni fang qi le.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
10:46 PM

can you imagine how fast something comes and goes. and best. it happened on my birthday. guess feelings just comes and goes and maybe they will come back? have i done something wrong? its just so sudden. one moment you're here the next moment you're gone. oh well. i never regret spending those times with you. those precious memories are kept (:

its all gone.
my tears don't fall, they crash around me.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
1:12 AM

Friday, February 02, 2007

finally today is my birthday (: hahas. i had fun and thanks to all the lovely ppl whp wished me, celebrated with me, pei-ed me, gave me presents for being there. this birthday was super wrong. emo-ed at the beach. the one i wanted to spend my birthday with didn't seem to bother much at all he came in the morning said happy birthday gave me the present and thats it.

so near yet so far.
you were the one i wanted
but you turned away
not a single word was said
left me in tears
left me in disappointment
all i wanted was you to be there
but you just weren't there.
baby all i want is you.

i really wanted to spend my special day to you but i guess you didn't know. tell me things are fine, tell me you're mine. you drifted, not only from me but others too. where'd you go.. i miss you so

if you read this.
i love you alot. serious.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
10:19 PM

Thursday, February 01, 2007

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY VERA!!!!
A FEW MORE MINUTES! till im officially 15! SMILES. wahaha. tmr got test test and test. today also tests.. lol. last period richard got course. FREE PERIOD (: slacked. then went for lunch with dearest ethel. love is already sleeping.. best -.- hahas. something is bloody wrong with blogger. go then keep showing error. then re-type then ok le. now im boreded. slacked with ppl just now for awhile then went home. BIRTHDAYYYY MOOODDDD. (:

take cares chih kai!

baby you are the one.
iloveyou
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
11:12 PM