The last something that meant anything.

Monday, April 30, 2007

WHOOPEEDOOOO. tmr's holiday. (:

love's sick and he made an effort to go school still so he can meet me. X) you're kind luh. love you. school was ultimate boredom luh. mrs wan didn't come 2 free periods. BUT ms teo was sort of moody? but oh well. then we had ss after school. blah blah blah. met love. (: you're super sick lah. get well soon darling! IM SUPER BORED NOW. yes. and i want to go out tmr. SAVE MEEEE.

there's a dog expedition at my house claims love. LOL. why? cause there are many dogs luh. so cute. super small to super big. its just damn funny luh.

Waking up I see that everything is OK
The first time in my life and now it's so great
Slowing down I look around and I am so amazed
I think about the little things that make life great

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]
This innocence is brilliant
I hope that it will stay
This moment is perfect
Please don't go away
I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

I found a place so safe, not a single tear
The first time in my life and now it's so clear
Feel calm, I belong, I'm so happy here
It's so strong and now I let myself be sincere

I wouldn't change a thing about it
This is the best feeling

[Chorus]

It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
It's a state of bliss, you think you're dreaming
It's the happiness inside that you're feeling
It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry

It's so beautiful it makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Makes you wanna cry
This innocence is brilliant
Please don't go away
Cause I need you now
And I'll hold on to it
Don't you let it pass you by

[Chorus]

-innocence, Avril Lavigne

and i will never find another lover as precious as you (:
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:22 PM

Sunday, April 29, 2007

HAPPY BIRTHDAY SUPERWOMAN, HANNAH LOVE! and HAPPY BIRTHDAY TERENCE KOR KOR (:

Masquerade Love.
11:37 PM

its. 8.25am (: not sure why i woke up but i was touched by what you did luh. can't believe you really stayed up and wait till i wake up. luckily i woke up earlier X) now you're sleeping soundly. hohoho. neh neh you and your little actions that touched my heart deeply luh. i love you so so so much can. i miss you fuck loads. rahhh. monday quick come! dearest you're the cutest thing can. anyway. IM GOING BACK TO SLEEP =x

i love you more than words can say.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
8:27 AM

Saturday, April 28, 2007

Specially for my superwoman.

lovely you know im talking bout you! all this ups and downs you're having is super hard on you and then there's still school and all. everything seems to be crashing down on you eh? whether you love him or he love you. just don't think bout it anymore ok? let nature take its course. i suppose he believed you that much that he didn't know how to react to it. i know you didn't mean what you say. shit happens so cheer up ok? don't let yourself go nuts over this. have some faith in yourself. look on the bright side! everything will be fine. concentrate on your mid-years ok? you don't want to flunk it cause of this. if this is really the end for you and him. then you'll stand strong and get over him ok? but you may never know. this may just be a thing you'd face but when its over, everything will be as sweet as ever. and no matter what. keep it as bestfriends ok? even if you can't have him as a bf. a bestfriend is still better than nothing (: IM ALWAYS HERE FOR YOU! I LOVE YOU, SUPERWOMAN!

when times are tough,
i'm just a phone call/msg away.
i would be your listening ear.
so love, stay strong.
i'll always be there for you!

dedicated to my dear hannah, SUPERWOMAN (:

Masquerade Love.
5:39 PM

IM SUPER BOREDDDDDDDDD. im missing you. YOU KNOW IT X) my boyfriend is being gay now =x went to suntec and raffles mall just now. nothing nice. went to this shop. really nice. they have the cutest plaster lah. YES i know retarded BUT THEIR PLASTER REALLY SUPER CUTE. X) lips, eggs, bacons X) even mummy laughed. had ss this morning. shasha didn't come! then after lesson went to ws with kimmy and farizah. and now im homeeeeeeeeee. going to tm later i suppose and im gonna start mugging for ss X) BE AMAZED!

anyway. kim drew this out of boredom. X)

I think damn cute lah. X) EHEH WHEN YOU SEE THIS, sexyvoice drew it for you! HAHAHA. neh neh lah. SLEEP SO LATE IF NOT I COULD HAVE MET YOU THIS MORNING! =x booooooooo. not your fault lah. =x im just missing you, so im ranting on and on. BOREDED PEOPLE. =x kimmy wants to continue drawing.

baby you're L-O-V-E.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
5:14 PM

Friday, April 27, 2007

YAWNNNNNNNS. bored fuck. rahhhh. love is online dota-ing now. neh neh. HAHA. pokes. 1 MISSED CALL X) funny can! school was boring as usual cept for ss. ms leong showed pictures of how innocent ppl were killed/ died during terrorist attacks. super poor thing lah. then she brighten us up with engrish. SUPER FUNNY. laugh to tears =x yes, appearantly its that funny. bio lessons were changed to cme. spent the time playing online games. BOMBAY TAXI! PARELLAL PARKING RAHHHH. mrs wan was super cute luh. then after sch went to watch 200 pounds beauty with elisha. the ending was SAD. real sad. tears and all. then sat outside mac to study and wait for rain to stop. su and vin came. awhile later took 22 with elisha to her house there and met love. (: and then sent me home for tuition. RAHHH BORING SHIT. =x

IM WAITING OH-SO-PATIENTLY FOR YOU TO LEAVE SINGAPORE. QUICKKKKKKKKK LEAVEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE. [random much]

now feeling super sleepy =x and there's combine SS class tmr. 8am.
i don't want go sch tmr !!! save meeeeeeeeee.

my dearest, I MISS YOU LOVE!

im contented with my life (:
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:42 PM

Thursday, April 26, 2007

HELLOOOOO. SYFFFFFFFFFFFF got silverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr. ok lah. quite happy. though its not a gold. there's improvement (: love is having tuition now and by the time he finishes tuition mine would start. GREAT TIMING -.- IM SO FREAKING BORED. i've got a load off my shoulder. all smiles for syf results (: i soooooo feel like sleeping luh but nooooo. cause i have tuition. MATHS tuition somemore. SAVE ME PLEASE! yeah weekends are coming! and i have extra class on sat for ss. RAHHHHH. oh well. i miss you effing much and i bet you're gonna read this soon X)

i love my dearest boyfriend (:
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
6:19 PM

Wednesday, April 25, 2007

RAINNNNNNN X) neh neh (: I MOTIVATED YOU TO STUDY X) inspiration eh! hohoho. i think your teachers super cute lah I ALSO WANT EH. smiles luh ok? the small girl also super cute sia. i like her hair colour! k retarded =x there's chem test tmr. CHEMMMMMM. gonna study as promised. IM SUPER BORED LAH.

It's early in the morning
soon another day will dawn
I can't wait to feel your arms
around me again

I believe that we could
lay down the world
together we could live
the dream that never ends

Open up the door
just a little more
baby let me in

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

Everytime I near you
time is standing still
there's nothing you can't fix
with your heavenly smile

I would never leave you
my love is for life
taking things for granted
was never my style

Just give a little love
say you'll never stop
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love
If you'll give me your heart

And I'll do anything
if you give me your heart
ahh ahh yeah
I'll do anything

You are the one, You are the one
who can make moments last forever
The one that makes the sun shine
where ever you go

give a little love
say you'll never stop
and I'll do anything
I'll give you love
if you'll give me your heart

ohhhhh ohhhhh

Where ever you go
you are the one
why make it harder, than it has to be
just listen, I'll give you love

if you'll give me your heart

-you are the one, C21

loving you always,
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
7:51 PM

Tuesday, April 24, 2007

HELLOOOOO PEOPLE. syf was today. it didn't turn out as we expected. glad that everyone did their best X) anxiously waiting for thursday to come so we can know our results. went to bedok reservoir that side today. waited for sha to change and all went to mac to 'study' i was super tired luh. met love. then went home. we're tired people. AND he gave me notes to study. and formatts to remember. LOL. love you many can. tmr's eng paper 1 and 2. GOOD LUCK MY DEAR PEOPLE! feeling super sleepy now so i'm offfffffffffff.

L-O-L-O-L-O-L-O-V-E,
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:35 PM

Monday, April 23, 2007

GOOD LUCK MY LOVELY DANCERS! SYF is in less than 24hrs. X)

am super super superrrrrrr tired now. AND I STILL FEEL SUPER BAD! super duper sorry for making you wait ultra long =x i know i said this a million times. but im saying it again! hahas. and many many thanks for carrying my stuff! I LOVE YOUUUUUU X) always all ways me and you. i need to get sufficient sleep. so OFF TO BED X)

love, faith and hope! SYFFFFFF!

denz, i love you X)
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
10:44 PM

Sunday, April 22, 2007

BOREDDDDDDDDDDDDD. i'm super duper bored now. SAVE MEEEEE SOMEONE ANYONEEEEEEE. idiot lah you. disturbance sia. HAHA. you've missed, miss and missing! STUDY FOR YOUR MID YEARS YOU NEH NEH! you can date with dota anytime you want but STUDY for now ok? hilary duff looks not hilary duff. saw her on the cover on teens. she looked oh-so-different.

appearantly mother's day is coming quite soon and i've yet to know what to give mummy. RAHH. SYF is on TUESDAY. omg omg. GOLDDDDD X) mid years are here too. great timing -.- oh well. project-i MALAYSIA X) SHOPPING SPREEEEE WHOO. waiting for many stuff to happen. ms singapore universe is on tonight. ok random random random.

LOVE I MISS YOU OH-SO-MUCH LAH!

truly, madly, deeply.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
6:43 PM

Saturday, April 21, 2007

And i miss you love, hohoho. had dance practice today. supposedly full dress but we only did half dress -.- the costume was ok lah. its cute. not fab not anything i expected it'll turn out to be. look like curtain =x ended round 1+ went to whitesands to meet qirui then went home. HOHOHO. I MISS YOU LOVE! now im super duper bored. mugging for chem X) CHEM TEST. im gonna pass. I NEED TO PASS. rahhh. after hours. this is how far i blogged =x i give up.

can't imagine me without you (:
-hillary

P.S: I LOVE YOU!

Masquerade Love.
10:02 PM

Friday, April 20, 2007

hello people. super tiring day today. had maths re-test. IM GONNA PASSS! i need to pass -.- 2 free periods from SS. still haven't gone for any pc yet. there was dance and instructor didn't come today. appearantly i super feel like falling asleep now. =x there's chem test on monday! STUDYYYYY X) rahhh. bodyaches =x random! exams are coming. PEOPLE START MUGGING!!

Please tell me your for real
Because I don't want to bleed no more
As the night fades away
I'm dreaming of you
Please tell me you feel something
Because what I feel is ecstasy
Oh shame on you
You cast your spell on me

La da da da
The stars align for you and I tonight
La da da da
I need you in my life
La da da da
The stars align for you and I tonight
La da da da
I'll take that as a sign

I'm so unprepared
But you don't seem to care
I'm hardly a man
But here I am
I'm not sure what you see
Because what I am is disaster
Spring you came so early
Shine down on me

So hold on to me
(caught up in the moment)
Because I don't want to lose you
(I think I'm crazy)
I don't want to become a memory
(ring around the roses she has me blushing)
So hold on to me
You're a million miles away
But I am still the same as yesterday

I need you
I miss you

-counting stars, waking ashland

the stars align for you and i tonight.
-hillary 200407

Masquerade Love.
10:34 PM

Thursday, April 19, 2007

HOHOHO. SYF is a few days away. STRESSSSSS. the dance is completed i think. can't wait to see the costume X) am mugging for maths retest AND helping some neh neh make his blogskin. BE THANKFUL! XP super duper tired. school's stressed up. mid years are next week!! how rush can things get. this is gonna be a quick post i suppose. super duper tired. had one free period. there's dance everyday. JIA YOU GIRLS! WE CAN DO IT X) dancers are LOVE.

because what i felt was ecstasy,
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
8:39 PM

Monday, April 16, 2007

daddy dearest. I FUCKING HATE YOU LIKE NO TOMMORROW! i hope you read this and remember this for life. i will never be thankful to you and neither do i see reasons to be. i never see you as a father in my life. you will always be someone that left scars on me for what i haven't done wrong at all. you think you actually cared. that was the last thing you actually did.

yes and i meant what i said above. i'm pissed.

lessons were boring. free periods. slacked. nail tore out -.-. pc for flour thingy. WTH. danced. thats bout it. YOU NEH NEH. get well soon ok?

i'm in absolute no mood to talk bout anything else.

i hate you daddy.
-hillary.

Masquerade Love.
9:03 PM

Sunday, April 15, 2007

hahas. appearantly i've uploaded even more pics. these were taken on friday before the choir concert where we were SUPER BORED!

This was taken during the last day of camp i think. outside the dorm. I MISS CAMP!

Sports day! with king kong's medal X)

Do not try this at home i suppose =x
chairman and co. decided to try out the physics thingy teacher shown.

thats bout all the photos i have i guess. X) IM BORED! =x

many many love.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
5:54 PM

hello my loves. after light years of not having photos. FINALLY, i've loaded them up =x abit outdated but its never too late!! hahas.

Chinese new year and movie marathon at valerie's house X)

This orange is super cute X)

Oh well. me and elisha were boreded people =x

The orange was then being eaten by elisha! hahas. k went out with parents. blahblahblah. boring as usual. i was super bored and finally brought myself to upload the photos. took more photos =x

cam-whoring at home.

(:

this was taken at valerie's house. X) awww i miss those times.
ELISHA YOU'RE LOVE!

K so appearantly i'm still BORED. nehneh you're missed (:

-hillary

Masquerade Love.
4:46 PM

Saturday, April 14, 2007

HAPPY 15th BIRTHDAY JOEL!
jiejie loves you many many (:

hello there an angel from my nightmare. (: ok random much.

lets see. nothing interesting happened this week i suppose other than SYFs. there was speech day and choir concert. this is gonna be a long post i guess.

13th april.

school ended at 12 X) had dance meeting. cindy is our new president for dance, illiya and steph are our vice-presidents. congrats lovelies! and im doing makeup! HOHOHO. *draws eyebrows* X) then went off with su, sha, hongyen. mrt-ed to tamp. many apologies for being late luh =x hahas. and thank you for the mentos! X) hohoho.

went home changed. waited for some neh neh person to reach tamp. then mrt-ed to eunos to meet elisha. went to marina square. walked around aimlessly and being super retarded luh. walked to victoria concert hall. met cin and sean around esplanade, walked to vch together and waited for ethel and company to come. saw many people but not many familiar faces. elisha and i laughed like retards. if you were there i bet you'll be laughing too! the whole thing ended bout 9++ close to 10. waited for our sch choir ppl to come out then me and elisha went to the merlion there. THAT was the first time my dear girl went to merlion and i brought her there (: sat there stoned. that neh neh came (: hahas. sat next to the merlion and talked.

elisha went bonkers over her hp game. super funny. then around 11 i guess we went to raffles to take mrt home. NEH NEH YOU NO STAMINA =x hahas. if only it lasted forever. (: went home started doing my hw.

got hell from someone fucker at home. for the fact that i never do anything wrong i have every right to not talk to you. i have every right not to give you my respect at all.

ok anyway. then 3++ went to sleep.

Today

went for social studies lesson this morning. doubt anyone was in the mood of going. lesson ended half hour before expected time then have to help mr lua carry tables and benches back to the canteen. HEAVYYYY. amazingly tables are much lighter then the stupid benches. after that went home straight. -.- no one's home and appearantly parents did not come back at 1+ slept and waited for them to come home. went out for dinner. and now i'm home. boreded.

if only that moment paused.
-hillary

P.S: you're my new found jealousy (:

Masquerade Love.
6:17 PM

Monday, April 09, 2007

NEHNEH! im having fluuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu XP now im super super bored. and depressed. i score FOUR for maths test FOURRRRRRR. ok lah not that i studied or anything but its quite depressing. lol. im super tired now. lessons were not so fantastic. and neither would tmr be good. tmr is malay dance syf. good luck dancers X) mdm zaibon forgotten bout our test so we'll be having it on wed. BOOO. now im thinking if i should do my NYAA thingy. i think i should start eh. AND HANNAH WAS BLOGGING BOUT ME and now she disappeared! neh neh luh you! WHERE'D YOU GOOOOO! now im having a terrible nose block. HANNAH IM REPLYING TO YOUR LETTER X) honoured? even when im sick! whoo. i actually started on nyaa. (: eyelids are closing on me. rahhhhh. i shan't say more. off to sleep!

there's so much i can't say
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:44 PM

Saturday, April 07, 2007

HELLOOOO. lets see. im currently down with fever. boo to that. last night quarrelled with parents. double boo. had puffy eyes this morning. avoided talking to parents. LOL. imagine the silence at home eh. friday was good friday. went out with parents. watched mr bean holiday with them. the movie was retarded luh. abit awkward since i was with my parents. then walk here walk there. mummy shopped alot again. then had dinner. then some kuku person walked pass me HAHA. funny sia. then went home. LOL. felt sick.

practically stayed home today. went to take just now for dinner. walked around abit. then come home le. and the part below my lips seems to hurt -.- AND I DON'T BLOODY KNOW WHYYYY.the inside like swollen? LOL neh neh all this sickening things.

gonna finish reading the book very soon (: am super sleepy now but i don't want to go sleeppppppp boo.

to HANNAH FOO!
MY DEAR WOMAN! im gonna talk bout YOUUUUU.
this lovely lady is LOVE. super cute and pretty! i love you many many ok? she has a uber cute voice and talking to her is just simply love. we love firm ass yah? HOHOHO. heavily influenced by ahem. X) my dear lady i wish you luck with all my heart. I LOVE YOUUU.

i can't believe i actually completed some hw. (: yeah. hohoho. im dead bored here. some people just take forever to finish bathing!

love, me.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
9:45 PM

Thursday, April 05, 2007

i hate windows i swear. damn idiot luh. now i got two bloody swollen lines. fuck them RAHHH. anyway. napfa IS OVER X) yeah. i think i got my silver. and my head is hurting like hell. AM SUPER SUPER TIRED NOW. tmr's friday. going out with parents. boo to that i suppose. and headaches make you feel weird. rahhhh. maths test today. booooooooooooo. but nvm. its over anyway. AND SYF is in less than a month. WORRIED! excitteddddddddd X) chem was ok today. i suppose. ms teo is abit pms-ish. so yah.. and ting hui is my lab partner for chem X) hohoho. some people are obsessed with gaming? I WANT CS. i know im slow =x hahas.

take cares my lovely people.

thought you should know.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
8:54 PM

quick post before i go off to sleep X) maths test tmr and napfa. RAHHH. prays hard that i pass. sleepy me. boo. good nights dear people!

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

I shouldn't love you
but I want to,
I just can't turn away
I shouldn't see you
but I can't move
I can't look away

And I don't know
How to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

CHORUS
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

It's getting hard to, be around you
There's so much I can't say
and do you want me to hide the feelings
and look the other way

And I don't know
how to be fine, when I'm not
Cause I don't know
How to make the feeling stop

CHORUS
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

This emptiness is killing me
and I'm wondering why I waited so long
Looking back I realized,
it was always there just never spoken
and I'm waiting here
been waiting here

mmmm.....oh

CHORUS
Just so you know
this feeling's taking control of me
and I can't help it
I won't sit around
I can't let him win now
Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know
ohh

Just so you know
ohhh

Thought you should know
I tried my best to let go, of you
but I don't want to
I just gotta say it all before I go
Just so you know

Just so you know
-just so you know, Jesse McCartney

whole lot of love.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
12:12 AM

Sunday, April 01, 2007

WHOOPEEEDOOO X) hohoho. sounding all hyper, im down with headaches which is driving me up the wall! anyway. life was boring today. read where rainbows end, nice book. really feel like sleeping but nvm. hw is staring at me. boooo. and i'm wondering if i should finish my compo about my future spouse. LOL. gonna randomly blog bout random things. X)

step by step, i'm falling down. are you the one or not. BOOOO.

moodswings are coming on strong. i sense it!

I MISS CAMP STILL! i miss my instructor. though the whole cute thingy was abit strange BUT I MISS HERRR! i guess i miss staying with my class too.

school's back to normal tmr. and daddy wants to watch a movie as a family on friday. thats a change. it sounds and feel WEIRD. oh well. i need my daily dosage of laughter if not you'll get a pissed of angry hillary and she bites! hohohoho. k that was real random!

ok this post is taking me ages to write. i'm gonna do my compo X) and dream of my future spouse MWAHAHAHA. (familiar laughter eh!)

hey hey you you i don't like your girlfrienddddddddddd! X))
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
8:47 PM

SOMEONE retarded requested for a post so here i am. X) hahas. today was stressed up. anyway, went to simei slack with ppl then rushed home on time. went to orchard for dinner. lol. met qi rui for awhile. hohoho. now im staring at the comp. fucked up boo. sorry bout this super duper short post. =x will blog a longer one another day X)

i'm clueless.
-hillary

Masquerade Love.
1:08 AM