the world has turned upside down. so many things i have to face. stop torturing me. i'm really lost and confuse. i don't know what to do anymore. i can't follow my heart. i can only drop down and cry my pain away. i really miss you. but i don't think you can feel it at all. you are happily outside enjoying and i was foolish enough to think that i could really go out with you. thinking that i could spend more time with you during the holidays. guess i was wrong. i shouldn't have thought it would happen in the first place. i am really lost. my pain have yet to go away. STOP HAUNTING ME WITH THESE PAIN! i don't want to be hurt. and i believed that you won't. please don't make me regret this. 6th week is tommorow. but i know. you wouldn't be there with me. i don't know what to say. i guess. you just have no time. i tried to understand. but. i guess im just hurt. you can never see that smile again. it has totally faded away. i just can't face reality no more. why are these things happening like knife stabbing into my heart? the blood that drips. the tears that flow. i can't take it anymore. no one sees it. no one feels it. only me. the hurt. so deep. things will never be the same again. you just don't understand that its not the same? you just can't see the pain. i can hide everything and decieve this whole world. but i just can't hide it from myself. things just don't seem right. i just want you. i really miss you. i really love you. i hope you do. and always will. i want it to be the same. like last time. where you were always there with me. we had fun with them. you are just not that person i know. you are not the person who love me. you have become someone else. i want my teddy bear to come back. the one whom i know and love. i want the old you to come back. please.

POISONkiss.

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